just bad luck

I was four beers deep
when I thought to myself
maybe I shouldn’t have had
those four beers.
Maybe I should have
apologized to you
instead.

So I rode my bike
to get a pack of cigarettes,
and think it over.
Then I took a shower,
to wash away the smoke,
and think it over.

I sobered up.
And then I drove North.

I’m still not sure why you waited for me after work.

I apologized as we smoked in the moist march night.

Apparently
I’m just bad luck,
you pointed out,
when your car wouldn’t start.

We waited for the wires to charge the battery.
I felt like I could have waited forever.
You were so impatient to get moving.

You thanked me for the jump.

I’m still sorry.

RANDOM
#anger
#apology
#dating
#depression
#drinking
#guilt
#hesitation
#loneliness
#love
#night
#regret
#self-deprecation
#selfish
#smoke
#heteroglossic-synesthesia
As Common As Carbon(1024 x 512 px)

How to Use

how to use:

as common as carbon is a poetic stream of consciousness.
there are 3 categories of “poems”:

(i) heteroglossic synesthesia (complete poems)
(ii) hobonyms (words with no homes)
(iii) mind jerky (thoughts to chew on)

after reading a poem you have 3 options to “turn the page”

“RANDOM” – takes you to a random poetic expression
#hastags – take you to another random poem with the same theme or motif
#category – takes you to a random poem in the same category

“no one can step in the same river twice, for it’s not the same river and they are not the same person” – possibly Heraclitus

just as no one can step in the same river twice, no one can have the same experience of “as common as carbon” twice