just a bit of physical reciprocation
I’ll settle for a fractionor an indefinite decimaljust help me out a bit pleaseI know we’re trying to help ourselvesbut we hurt each otherbut we make each other feel goodbut we want such different thingsbut we want the same thingI know you want meyou know I want youI know I want youyou know you want […]
There’s this pain in my heart that just won’t go away
even though I want to speak to you I don’t know what to sayI wish that I could tell you exactly how I feelwish that you understood that what I feel for you is realcuz our story has not been terminatedwe’re just living our lives separatedit’s hard to understand why wechanged to you and mebut […]
Nothing is clear at the end
focus.
It hurts too much to write right now
I’ve been trying so hard to live without painbut the instantaneous dissipationof the only words I could mutterhas left the room empty.The reverberations of your footstepshave dissolved into the infinite,leaving mecold, trembling, and alone.
used tissue
is it the [faint reverberation]of pain in your voice that speaks to me?[flowing][creeping] past my ears, into the fogof latencywhere you shine no lightbut are willingto explore in darkness feel your way through the mistwith your broken fleshstretched and torn:scars that hide your scarsuntil you feel my gazeand relight your eyes as you press your […]
you told me that my voice would be heard
and though I have no belief in prophecies-convincing utterances-your assurance is appreciated.it’s been a long time since mywaking dreams have beenfantasticwonderfulhopefulI have so little of thatso, regardless of your intentions,thanks,it helped.Why did those words help?Or, the real question,why do your words help?is it our agreed temporality?(facades still impress upon us)is it your conviction?(say anything convincingly […]
In my dream I could paint
the consequence more illustriousthan the originala glorious magnificent representation even I was shocked at theprecision of my depiction why was it youI chose to showmy fantastic achievement tois lost in my subconscious the circinate strokes were blacksurrounding a nucleic absenceset against an ominous backdrop I don’t knowwhy you were thereor whether you caredI don’t know […]
In my dreams I could draw
I cannot bring myself
to form a proper poemabout your irregular pap smearand the possibility of your contraction ofHPV.You’re scared.I’m scared.You’re more scared.Fuck.Fuck.Stay positive;comforting.Be comforting.Fucking shit.Hold it together.Hold on to eloquence.Need a drink.Need a smoke.No.Need to hold you close.It’s not about me.It’s not about me.But I’m here.I need to stay here.Need to stay okay.Need to be okay.Need to help […]
