no faith maybe hope
There you are,a single entitycomprised of infiniteconstituents:A pastthat has brought you to thispresent,all of which will dictateyour future,while I lay in bedreviewing,processing,analyzing,wondering,losing focus ofthe present,caught up in a search—a maddening desire—to understandthe infinite.I refuse to havefaith,but I will try to retain somehope.
Tonight, Life was Hope/Love
Take my hand,And walk with meFor the sake of life.We will walkThrough the shining beams of light,The stretches of darkness.Tonight, we deem destination unnecessary,For our ends lie within our selves.Take my hand,And speak to meFor the sake of life.We can talkOf anything we want,Or nothing at all.Tonight, the subject is us,For we long to share.Take […]
accepting premises
The sweetest contaminate:
a benevolent disruption of logicvoicing her passionsas her nimble fingers manipulate,no,create,projecting herself into this worldand into my arms. I heard birds squawking;She listened to their song.I prove myself with reason;She proves herself with colors. But this is illogical,and I’m all shades of grey. So why do our hands keep finding each other?And why are our […]
just bad luck
I was four beers deepwhen I thought to myselfmaybe I shouldn’t have hadthose four beers.Maybe I should haveapologized to youinstead. So I rode my biketo get a pack of cigarettes,and think it over.Then I took a shower,to wash away the smoke,and think it over. I sobered up.And then I drove North. I’m still not sure […]
Why did I let you go?
You brought your avocadosand onions.I bought the limes,tomato,and beer.We shared it all,along with the couchand a sad story. We talked offar off placesand home,and pulled a blanket overusfor warmthand comfortand proximity. Our bodies rested againsteach other.But I didn’t grab your hand.I wouldn’t wrap my arms around you.I don’t know if I should have. But I […]
Escape from Colter Bay
We dipped out of the crowded testosterone binto a couples discount.(I think he knew we were sober) We both liked the dress,but opinions of her voice contrasted. Respect somehow was lost during the next round;I don’t quite remember the cause. You were smart enough to testthe caged alpha monkey. Yup—it’s still weird. Old acquaintances jabbered […]
on not in
This neutered state of selfis changedmindsets and habitsrearranged Conversationsranged:ideologysociologysexualityneutralitygoodandevil We talked to other peoplebut wound up next to each other You came home with me You climbed onto my bedbut not into it.You came home with me,but you didn’t stay
A bad prediction
Her fiancé has landed in Tel-Aviv,I gather from her side of the conversation(the only audible sideas it has so often been)with Patrick over the phone.News of riots in Jerusalemigniting fanciful thoughts of the worst.Who can blame her?She made her way across the worldto see cruelty lurking in the corners,bruises left by racist fists upondear friends […]
