I’ve lost sight of my boundaries
again.How can something be right if thereare no parameters to govern sucha concept?Is existence itself proof of what is right?Or does the existence of error nullifythat argument?There has been no powerrevealed to us—–save those that we created ourselves,that can judgeright or wronggood or badwithin an infinite context.Our perception creates our worldBut where does our perception […]
If I can’t trust myself
can I trust you?can you trust me?it hurts to be humanit hurts to errI indulgeI drink sadness and despairI breathe smoke, instead of airmy eyes burn from lack of tearsmy heart beats fast and weakwhen I confront my fearsmy blood-stained fleshis like this ink-stained fleshas I try to bleed outmy terrors and rageI’ll make you […]
There is a part of me
so coarse and dryit cannot thrive inthe light of day cracked and bruisedthe blood tastesbitteras it grindsthe imageof others sanctuary insolemn solitudesilentlydivide separate self andothers as isolated as the moonamong the stars alone amidstthe galaxy
Where in the world are we going?
To feel stuck
in this modern stateseemsungrateful orignorantas self-absorbedas our addiction to petroleum.There’s some irony for you.I own a car.I have money.I have legs.Yet,stuckis the onlyword I findto describe how I feel.Maybe it’s the knowledge,the photographs,the clever marketing schemesencouraging you to“get away” from it all,offering somewhere else.Somewhere better.It’s all the same place.Just different.
Tragic Satirization
self deprecationunappreciationsevere miscommunicationmisread observationsrapid fluxationfalse constellationsfallacious extrapolationconvoluted socializationinadvertent misrepresentationsdiachronic recreationssloppy installationsignorant amplificationsde and re segregationchronic procrastinationambiguous divinationfallic gyrationpremature ejaculationspontaneous inspirationfowl degradationstatic dissipationstandard immunizationdiscreet implicationforced penetrationfamilial relationsadistic manipulationconstant participationobligatory observationredundant recitationmanifestation of living frustrationfeverous inebriationdangerous connotationscalloused determinationdestructive inclinationmutual masturbationfocused perspirationcontrastive enunciationrapturous sublimination
I hope the world looks different
with you by my sideagain.For right now,I can’t seem to see in color.Days comprised ofsloppily composedpetty to-doshalf assed attemptsto check offthese arbitrary tasksendeavors fruitlesscontentment unobtainablehappiness impalpable.Don’t get me wrong,I’m doing fine.Waiting is just hardfor a skeptic.I taught myself not to hope.I surrendered my faithin the search for truthand here I amwaitingand hopingtrying to find faithin […]
Pretendtious
just bad luck
I was four beers deepwhen I thought to myselfmaybe I shouldn’t have hadthose four beers.Maybe I should haveapologized to youinstead. So I rode my biketo get a pack of cigarettes,and think it over.Then I took a shower,to wash away the smoke,and think it over. I sobered up.And then I drove North. I’m still not sure […]
This is bad
When was it,exactly,that I started believing people could beGoodagain? Was it after thefifth beer? Or after that shot ofwhatever the fuck? Or maybe it wassome other event,conversation,occurrence,marked by human interaction,rather thanostracized gulpsof self-prescribed medication. Well,it was definitely before I returned homealone. We are all here.Sharing this life,this time,this place. But the truth iswe are all […]
